little big sista

the further the better
don't want to upset her
so far from her frequence
a fading affection
complexity climbing
from words and from warnings
i told her, tears tumbling
my fear in crescendo
perhaps i'm not able
i mumble excuses
i think that i'm useless
will i understand it?
can i make this effort?
should i find an essence
within all that you've just
explained with your speeches
must i understand?
no, i ought to start feeling
and to remember it once more
you won and i lost